things have definetely changed since my last post. i do not look forward to the last few hours before i go to bed now. theres nothing for me to look forward to. i asked this question to my sisters and i tweeted about it as well:

"which hurts more, getting cheated by someone you loved, to love someone who does not love you back or left by someone who you cared about?"


out of all those, ive experienced 2 of them. wont say which ones tho. but anyways, im curious. my sisters both agreed on 'getting cheated by someone you loved' as hurting the most. but that was before i add the last one.. originally there were only the first two options. yeah, im gonna re-ask them the question again. maybe i should ask everyone i know.

i havent been blogging much these days because of those spammers on my chatbox on your right. they're messing with my blog-vibe. not that, their irrelevant comments made any difference or what so ever. yeah i just made a point there. i hate it when i made myself see something about myself that i didnt see earlier. i ended up talking like a fool.


moving on. i guess i should start blogging again? theres just so much social networks now to check through for me. but the ones i spend most of my time in, is 2ndlife. i think i spend too much time in it. its starting to blur the reality VS virtual world lines. everything seemed to be connected now. im in way way too deep. i have a job in there. me, a JOB? can u believe that? in reality, getting a job scares the heck out of me. friends on my FB, who has transition from a student to an employee, complains on a daily basis how they just want to rest, too tired to go to work, they want to get MC. the list just goes on and on. doesnt seem like they are too happy.


i dont spend my time too much on FB, and yet the little things that i read when i refresh the news feed, made me feel less of myself than i already do. what is up with that? how are these people, that i do not see everyday, for years even, affects me today? i have no clue. im just so eager to get out and find my own life. and here, sitting infront of the laptop daily just isnt something that i ever thought of doing. i grew up imagining doing awesome things and being an awesome person.. *stares at the mirror* thats not what i see.

i sound like im already too old to do anything. im still 24 god damn it. i need a slap across my face and to be dragged out of this miserable self-hating hole im in. not healthy. not healthy.

things have definetely changed since my last post. i do not look forward to the last few hours before i go to bed now. theres nothing for me to look forward to. i asked this question to my sisters and i tweeted about it as well:

"which hurts more, getting cheated by someone you loved, to love someone who does not love you back or left by someone who you cared about?"


out of all those, ive experienced 2 of them. wont say which ones tho. but anyways, im curious. my sisters both agreed on 'getting cheated by someone you loved' as hurting the most. but that was before i add the last one.. originally there were only the first two options. yeah, im gonna re-ask them the question again. maybe i should ask everyone i know.

i havent been blogging much these days because of those spammers on my chatbox on your right. they're messing with my blog-vibe. not that, their irrelevant comments made any difference or what so ever. yeah i just made a point there. i hate it when i made myself see something about myself that i didnt see earlier. i ended up talking like a fool.


moving on. i guess i should start blogging again? theres just so much social networks now to check through for me. but the ones i spend most of my time in, is 2ndlife. i think i spend too much time in it. its starting to blur the reality VS virtual world lines. everything seemed to be connected now. im in way way too deep. i have a job in there. me, a JOB? can u believe that? in reality, getting a job scares the heck out of me. friends on my FB, who has transition from a student to an employee, complains on a daily basis how they just want to rest, too tired to go to work, they want to get MC. the list just goes on and on. doesnt seem like they are too happy.


i dont spend my time too much on FB, and yet the little things that i read when i refresh the news feed, made me feel less of myself than i already do. what is up with that? how are these people, that i do not see everyday, for years even, affects me today? i have no clue. im just so eager to get out and find my own life. and here, sitting infront of the laptop daily just isnt something that i ever thought of doing. i grew up imagining doing awesome things and being an awesome person.. *stares at the mirror* thats not what i see.

i sound like im already too old to do anything. im still 24 god damn it. i need a slap across my face and to be dragged out of this miserable self-hating hole im in. not healthy. not healthy.