By Effa on Monday, 19 December 2011 @ 17:10 {♥} 0 Comments
i forgot my password. havent been blogging cause of that. should have known i never change my password.
first post since a long while.
lots has changed since my last post. i did all right for my first semester as a grad student. results came out a few days ago. i did all right. but now i have to work even harder. specialisation modules begins this coming semester. no more studying basic and non-environmental related modules. thank goodness.
current listening to Sedang Apa Dan Di Mana by Sammy Simorangkir.
reminded me of him... this song is about him. well.. not every line. but, its him.
By Effa on Wednesday, 10 August 2011 @ 17:18 {♥} 0 Comments
i finally watched tv today. i havent been watching tv for so long i forgot the last time i did. anyways. saw a movie. 'All About Steve'.
Mary Horowitz is my new idol.
her character atleast.
following a guy around hoping he was her ticket to normality and love perhaps, and in the end realizing that she was all right all along. just inspires me.
im okay now. im okay with where i am. i still believe theres hope for me in this whole love thing. but maybe its not my time yet. maybe ive been in love with the idea of love that ive just been suffocating myself all this while with something that does not exist.
so im okay now. letting things be the way it has to be. im not going to force anything anymore. if it happens, than ill be the happiest girl alive. if it does not. its okay. tomorrow may be the day. and if not, the next day or the day after that.
looking at things in a positive light is surely an amazing feeling.
my problem is holding on to this. we shall see.
**oh and janet jackson's again, brings back old memories, of when i was a kid and ive no worries but school fees =p ***
By Effa on Saturday, 6 August 2011 @ 22:49 {♥} 0 Comments
mood: terrible.
what are my expectations? NOT to study core modules! i did not sign up for them. i wanted to specialised. why am i enrolled into basic classes? dont get me wrong but basics are important. but i didnt sign up for it. i want to move on straight to environmental studies.
today, my eyes were open wide.
today, i give up.
today, i regret everything.
today
is not good for me.
i feel like crying.
i was surrounded by all these 'experienced' and 'active speakers' students. i was drowned. i told myself that i need to step up and share what i think. but i couldnt. there were no moment during that 2 hours for me to share anything. you know how ppl say 'there is not such thing as a stupid question'. to this particular lecturer, such things EXISTS. so tell me, how am i suppose to ask anything? i always asked basic things like definition or whatever. if those are stupid what am i suppose to say then? but he later on said that 'this is still a learning process'. what?
im so upset. im blaming others.
in true fact, im upset with myself. i was an undergrad. all over again.
By Effa on Tuesday, 2 August 2011 @ 15:11 {♥} 0 Comments
this group needs some help with face expressions and body movements. dont get me started with the dance.
BUT.
they can go far. cause they have the voice. and they have the look. well, one more than the others. but that is not the point. vocally, they are GOOD. its just, everything that needs to be work-on more.
i get where the director is taking us, in terms of the concept of the video. but i think even the director needs help. some angels he/she shot makes you go 'huh?'
YET
i cant stop watching the video and listening to the song.
SO
i recommend you to take a few minutes of ur time to watch this.
By Effa on Monday, 1 August 2011 @ 22:38 {♥} 0 Comments
SELAMAT BERPUASA TO ALL MUSLIMS! RAMADHAN is here yet again! I hope 30 is the magic no. for me this time. AMIN.
on another note:
previous post was a bit over i must admit. i have this habit of letting the world know how angry i am or how upset i am w/o thinking much. i just type it out somewhere. yes, i was mad when i typed that post. cause ive every reason to.
BUT.
after that, it all worked out tho. all i needed was to talk it out. conversation works both ways. everything is clearer after u talk it out.
SO.
i am feeling so much better thank goodness cause now i know whats going on. makes breathing so much easier. so im just gonna state it once here, everything is a-okay. and as it should be. for now.
hopefully i will not present anymore drama here. its not like i actually say what i meant. cause im trying to be as subtle as i possibly can. dont want nobody to know much about certain things.
y this post then? just cause its my blog and i can do whatever i please. LOL.
By Effa on Friday, 29 July 2011 @ 16:57 {♥} 1 Comments
my current song. yes im all drama these days.
im going to tell him soon. i think i need to start taking care of myself now. i think its time, i get what i deserve.
maybe ill update this blog about that when that happened.
it will be days until ill see him online again.s o for now. imma be all down and moody and all emotional.
you know that feeling, when u cant seem to find comfort or be at peace because u havent finish what u wanted to get done with? thats how im feeling now. the more this stays in me, the longer ill be all emotional. so i hope this will end soon. im exhausted. i cant do this to myself anymore.
By Effa on Monday, 19 December 2011 @ 17:10 {♥} 0 Comments
i forgot my password. havent been blogging cause of that. should have known i never change my password.
first post since a long while.
lots has changed since my last post. i did all right for my first semester as a grad student. results came out a few days ago. i did all right. but now i have to work even harder. specialisation modules begins this coming semester. no more studying basic and non-environmental related modules. thank goodness.
current listening to Sedang Apa Dan Di Mana by Sammy Simorangkir.
reminded me of him... this song is about him. well.. not every line. but, its him.
By Effa on Wednesday, 10 August 2011 @ 17:18 {♥} 0 Comments
i finally watched tv today. i havent been watching tv for so long i forgot the last time i did. anyways. saw a movie. 'All About Steve'.
Mary Horowitz is my new idol.
her character atleast.
following a guy around hoping he was her ticket to normality and love perhaps, and in the end realizing that she was all right all along. just inspires me.
im okay now. im okay with where i am. i still believe theres hope for me in this whole love thing. but maybe its not my time yet. maybe ive been in love with the idea of love that ive just been suffocating myself all this while with something that does not exist.
so im okay now. letting things be the way it has to be. im not going to force anything anymore. if it happens, than ill be the happiest girl alive. if it does not. its okay. tomorrow may be the day. and if not, the next day or the day after that.
looking at things in a positive light is surely an amazing feeling.
my problem is holding on to this. we shall see.
**oh and janet jackson's again, brings back old memories, of when i was a kid and ive no worries but school fees =p ***
By Effa on Saturday, 6 August 2011 @ 22:49 {♥} 0 Comments
mood: terrible.
what are my expectations? NOT to study core modules! i did not sign up for them. i wanted to specialised. why am i enrolled into basic classes? dont get me wrong but basics are important. but i didnt sign up for it. i want to move on straight to environmental studies.
today, my eyes were open wide.
today, i give up.
today, i regret everything.
today
is not good for me.
i feel like crying.
i was surrounded by all these 'experienced' and 'active speakers' students. i was drowned. i told myself that i need to step up and share what i think. but i couldnt. there were no moment during that 2 hours for me to share anything. you know how ppl say 'there is not such thing as a stupid question'. to this particular lecturer, such things EXISTS. so tell me, how am i suppose to ask anything? i always asked basic things like definition or whatever. if those are stupid what am i suppose to say then? but he later on said that 'this is still a learning process'. what?
im so upset. im blaming others.
in true fact, im upset with myself. i was an undergrad. all over again.
By Effa on Tuesday, 2 August 2011 @ 15:11 {♥} 0 Comments
this group needs some help with face expressions and body movements. dont get me started with the dance.
BUT.
they can go far. cause they have the voice. and they have the look. well, one more than the others. but that is not the point. vocally, they are GOOD. its just, everything that needs to be work-on more.
i get where the director is taking us, in terms of the concept of the video. but i think even the director needs help. some angels he/she shot makes you go 'huh?'
YET
i cant stop watching the video and listening to the song.
SO
i recommend you to take a few minutes of ur time to watch this.
By Effa on Monday, 1 August 2011 @ 22:38 {♥} 0 Comments
SELAMAT BERPUASA TO ALL MUSLIMS! RAMADHAN is here yet again! I hope 30 is the magic no. for me this time. AMIN.
on another note:
previous post was a bit over i must admit. i have this habit of letting the world know how angry i am or how upset i am w/o thinking much. i just type it out somewhere. yes, i was mad when i typed that post. cause ive every reason to.
BUT.
after that, it all worked out tho. all i needed was to talk it out. conversation works both ways. everything is clearer after u talk it out.
SO.
i am feeling so much better thank goodness cause now i know whats going on. makes breathing so much easier. so im just gonna state it once here, everything is a-okay. and as it should be. for now.
hopefully i will not present anymore drama here. its not like i actually say what i meant. cause im trying to be as subtle as i possibly can. dont want nobody to know much about certain things.
y this post then? just cause its my blog and i can do whatever i please. LOL.
By Effa on Friday, 29 July 2011 @ 16:57 {♥} 1 Comments
my current song. yes im all drama these days.
im going to tell him soon. i think i need to start taking care of myself now. i think its time, i get what i deserve.
maybe ill update this blog about that when that happened.
it will be days until ill see him online again.s o for now. imma be all down and moody and all emotional.
you know that feeling, when u cant seem to find comfort or be at peace because u havent finish what u wanted to get done with? thats how im feeling now. the more this stays in me, the longer ill be all emotional. so i hope this will end soon. im exhausted. i cant do this to myself anymore.
"Welcome to my blog. I would like to specifically state here that this is NOT a kpop blog, dedicated to kpop stars & celebs' stories and neither is this blog a place where fans of kpop can find the latest news and information about dbsg, 2pm, super junior and others mentioned here from time to time"
"The informations that i put in this blog about kpop are strictly from SOOMPI.COM"
"I do not have a theme for this blog, though I really would like one - i cannot committ to one"
The Basics
"My name is Effa. I am a Bruneian woman, 24 years of age. Im into kpop, as you can probably tell already by now. I love singers *regardless of language, who sings from the heart, and do not take notice of their expressions and their looks when singing. I love songs like Justin Nozuka's Save Him - just an example"
"I think a lot, and I complain a lot - one of my many problems i suppose"
"I am single and always waiting for the right man to sweep me off my feet and take me away"
"I do not like being assumed or called 'anti-social' because i do not believe that word should exist at all. there are reasons why people chose not to be out-going, and not having a lot
of friends. if you give them a chance, they will wow you"
"I am what you call, a SHY person. when i say shy, i really mean that literally - it gets in a way of me being what "society accepts as" 'socialable' *sp? - but then again, this means that i must give in nonetheless?"
"I used to think that i am not the best candidate to take out for an adventure, but ive been working on it, 2 VACATIONS to date, im going strong"
"I live my life believing in Cinderella, only because it was one of the first books i ever read, and the thought of everyone having their own happily ever after, and a partner for life, makes me very happy"
"I play THe Sims game - specifically because it is the only place where i can create my dream houses. I love designing houses - modern, cabin-style, beach-style, big extended family type pf houses. Houses to me are Homes. they're the place
where people feel safe and warm and loved. my goal is to build homes for people"
"besides designing houses, i also love to re-decorate rooms. interior design - was and still is one of my many ambitions. i cannot just clean a room, i have to re-decorate it!"
Proudly part of these communities
♥ Soompi
♥ DOnghaelove forum
♥ spr jr. donghae asiafanatics
♥ lovelydonghae forum
♥ bww2
♥ youtube
♥ friendster
♥ facebook
♥ fanbox account
♥ esnips
♥ WAYN
♥ pet society
♥ restaurant city
♥ twitter
Cleopatra, like the famous Queen of Egypt
"Cleo is my latest cat. She is smart, she learns fast. she knows human language, like seriously! she loves to sleep and then eat immediately after she wakes up. she has grey, white and black colours on her fur. she eats 3 times a day, and that does not include the snacks she has in betweens. she cried for 2 nights when
she first came to us. she knows her name"
Who i Wished i can call MINE
"When I first saw donghae oppa, he has silver or very light blonde hair. back in TWINS days. something about him called out to me but i wasnt sure what it was. after in 'show me your love' i still felt the same vibe about him as i did in 'twins'.
it was a few nights later when i finally gave in and went in YouTube and watched the first video of him that made me fall in love with him. his diary - the one where he took his dog 'bada' to the pet groom place. i fell in love with donghae oppa"
"until today, DONGHAE OPPA saranghaeyo"
Theories
"Everyone is a clone of someone else"
"Nothing is really said, if what is said is not what one really thinks of"
