By Effa on Saturday, 31 July 2010 @ 18:55 {♥} 0 Comments  messy mess ^here's how messy my screen is at the moment^ so here's whats been going on. I'm currently struggling to apply both scholarship from MOE for Masters and Master's courses from Universities in South Korea and United Kingdom. So for those who know me, as in, REALLY know me, would automatically raise their eyebrows when they read 'United Kingdom' here in this post. Yes, so im applying to UK, even though from the roots of my hair to my *tapak kaki (excuse me right over here, im at lost of an english word for it) i do not wish nor do i even ever imagine of going there for studies. do not get me wrong, id love to go there for a vacation, but i just do not see myself going there to study. one of my worst fears, is to be in a room full with english-speaking people who live their lives speaking english and i stare blankly at the ceiling and the walls and the floors, struggling to understand what they say. so i have no confidence in my english, there's nothing i can do about that. so i want to start new, Korea - is the place for me. where i have an excuse to sux in the language - i am a beginner after all. eventually, ill be able to speak the language - AMIN (one of the many reasons why i want korea)
well anyways, my problem here is this.
MOE do not HAVE a list of South Korean Universities approve by them. their advice is for me to just apply and if im offered a place, they will discuss amongst themselves, if i should be given the scholarship. another problem i have now, is that MOE do not approve of Philosophy. Im leaning into the course because its about generating ideas - creating stories that might be explanations to changes and events. guess what philosophy has evolve into today. SOCIOLOGY - amongst the three disciplines *sp? if im not mistaken. do correct me if im wrong. so what better way to end my education, but by taking the very beginnings of the globally recognized social sciences - sociology, then to take philosophy? nothing i say. i want to take philosophy. but i know that i have more chance in getting a scholarship if i would have gotten 2.1, but that's not what im here to complain about - i have more chance in a scholarship if i take sociology. or perhaps, social research method. this is an MRes - so its not a taught course. maybe that should be interesting. all ill be doing is research, dissertation. so i do not have to worry about 'discussions' and 'presentations' and such. but ofcourse i will be presenting, just as long as i wont be PRESENTING OVER AND OVER AGAIN. i hate being the centre of attention. im not myself when im under the spot light. moving on. so okay, after blabeering all them worries above, i find myself now thinking that maybe im not THAT worried that MOE wont give me a scholarship in philosophy and in Korea. cause i kind of have hope. but who knows - id probably be shot down before i even began spelling the word 'h.o.p.e'. because ive never applied before, i never really know how it feels like - all them documents to copy and letters i have to get from people, and application forms i have to download, print, fill-in and send/scan. hard hard work. applying for Master's should be more quicker than applying for a degree. i mean, i wouldnt know that is. but what the heck. I just have to make sure that South Korea is difficult and impossible to get into, and ONLY THEN will i look into UK seriously. the clock is ticking and energy is running low. i need to re-charge. EFFA SSI HWAITING!
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By Effa on Saturday, 31 July 2010 @ 18:55 {♥} 0 Comments messy mess ^here's how messy my screen is at the moment^ so here's whats been going on. I'm currently struggling to apply both scholarship from MOE for Masters and Master's courses from Universities in South Korea and United Kingdom. So for those who know me, as in, REALLY know me, would automatically raise their eyebrows when they read 'United Kingdom' here in this post. Yes, so im applying to UK, even though from the roots of my hair to my *tapak kaki (excuse me right over here, im at lost of an english word for it) i do not wish nor do i even ever imagine of going there for studies. do not get me wrong, id love to go there for a vacation, but i just do not see myself going there to study. one of my worst fears, is to be in a room full with english-speaking people who live their lives speaking english and i stare blankly at the ceiling and the walls and the floors, struggling to understand what they say. so i have no confidence in my english, there's nothing i can do about that. so i want to start new, Korea - is the place for me. where i have an excuse to sux in the language - i am a beginner after all. eventually, ill be able to speak the language - AMIN (one of the many reasons why i want korea)
well anyways, my problem here is this.
MOE do not HAVE a list of South Korean Universities approve by them. their advice is for me to just apply and if im offered a place, they will discuss amongst themselves, if i should be given the scholarship. another problem i have now, is that MOE do not approve of Philosophy. Im leaning into the course because its about generating ideas - creating stories that might be explanations to changes and events. guess what philosophy has evolve into today. SOCIOLOGY - amongst the three disciplines *sp? if im not mistaken. do correct me if im wrong. so what better way to end my education, but by taking the very beginnings of the globally recognized social sciences - sociology, then to take philosophy? nothing i say. i want to take philosophy. but i know that i have more chance in getting a scholarship if i would have gotten 2.1, but that's not what im here to complain about - i have more chance in a scholarship if i take sociology. or perhaps, social research method. this is an MRes - so its not a taught course. maybe that should be interesting. all ill be doing is research, dissertation. so i do not have to worry about 'discussions' and 'presentations' and such. but ofcourse i will be presenting, just as long as i wont be PRESENTING OVER AND OVER AGAIN. i hate being the centre of attention. im not myself when im under the spot light. moving on. so okay, after blabeering all them worries above, i find myself now thinking that maybe im not THAT worried that MOE wont give me a scholarship in philosophy and in Korea. cause i kind of have hope. but who knows - id probably be shot down before i even began spelling the word 'h.o.p.e'. because ive never applied before, i never really know how it feels like - all them documents to copy and letters i have to get from people, and application forms i have to download, print, fill-in and send/scan. hard hard work. applying for Master's should be more quicker than applying for a degree. i mean, i wouldnt know that is. but what the heck. I just have to make sure that South Korea is difficult and impossible to get into, and ONLY THEN will i look into UK seriously. the clock is ticking and energy is running low. i need to re-charge. EFFA SSI HWAITING!
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My Story
Notes from me to you
"Welcome to my blog. I would like to specifically state here that this is NOT a kpop blog, dedicated to kpop stars & celebs' stories and neither is this blog a place where fans of kpop can find the latest news and information about dbsg, 2pm, super junior and others mentioned here from time to time"
"The informations that i put in this blog about kpop are strictly from SOOMPI.COM"
"I do not have a theme for this blog, though I really would like one - i cannot committ to one"
The Basics
"My name is Effa. I am a Bruneian woman, 24 years of age. Im into kpop, as you can probably tell already by now. I love singers *regardless of language, who sings from the heart, and do not take notice of their expressions and their looks when singing. I love songs like Justin Nozuka's Save Him - just an example"
"I think a lot, and I complain a lot - one of my many problems i suppose"
"I am single and always waiting for the right man to sweep me off my feet and take me away"
"I do not like being assumed or called 'anti-social' because i do not believe that word should exist at all. there are reasons why people chose not to be out-going, and not having a lot
of friends. if you give them a chance, they will wow you"
"I am what you call, a SHY person. when i say shy, i really mean that literally - it gets in a way of me being what "society accepts as" 'socialable' *sp? - but then again, this means that i must give in nonetheless?"
"I used to think that i am not the best candidate to take out for an adventure, but ive been working on it, 2 VACATIONS to date, im going strong"
"I live my life believing in Cinderella, only because it was one of the first books i ever read, and the thought of everyone having their own happily ever after, and a partner for life, makes me very happy"
"I play THe Sims game - specifically because it is the only place where i can create my dream houses. I love designing houses - modern, cabin-style, beach-style, big extended family type pf houses. Houses to me are Homes. they're the place
where people feel safe and warm and loved. my goal is to build homes for people"
"besides designing houses, i also love to re-decorate rooms. interior design - was and still is one of my many ambitions. i cannot just clean a room, i have to re-decorate it!"
Proudly part of these communities
♥ Soompi
♥ DOnghaelove forum
♥ spr jr. donghae asiafanatics
♥ lovelydonghae forum
♥ bww2
♥ youtube
♥ friendster
♥ facebook
♥ fanbox account
♥ esnips
♥ WAYN
♥ pet society
♥ restaurant city
♥ twitter
Cleopatra, like the famous Queen of Egypt
"Cleo is my latest cat. She is smart, she learns fast. she knows human language, like seriously! she loves to sleep and then eat immediately after she wakes up. she has grey, white and black colours on her fur. she eats 3 times a day, and that does not include the snacks she has in betweens. she cried for 2 nights when
she first came to us. she knows her name"
Who i Wished i can call MINE
"When I first saw donghae oppa, he has silver or very light blonde hair. back in TWINS days. something about him called out to me but i wasnt sure what it was. after in 'show me your love' i still felt the same vibe about him as i did in 'twins'.
it was a few nights later when i finally gave in and went in YouTube and watched the first video of him that made me fall in love with him. his diary - the one where he took his dog 'bada' to the pet groom place. i fell in love with donghae oppa"
"until today, DONGHAE OPPA saranghaeyo"
Theories
"Everyone is a clone of someone else"
"Nothing is really said, if what is said is not what one really thinks of"
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