my final results came out a couple of hours ago. i refreshed the UBD website more than 15 times and there was no change - infact, there is still no updates at the moment. so my aunt called me up and told me about the results and looked up mine for me since the web has not been updated yet. I was so shocked to hear my final project grade that all 3 other grades just seemed nothing to me. I saw my life flashing by me in that instant i heard the letter 'C'.


i worked the hardest i have ever worked in my life in that last year. I went places where id never thought i will ever go to. I talked to people I never thought of speaking to. I grew as a student and as a person. as important as these changes are to myself personally, its just not what i need to get the honor class that i NEED. the 'C' will not help me one bit. I know my effort deserves a 'B' but grades are not given to effort - its all about the end results. and my end results is unsatisfying.

for 8 semesters i have only managed to get 1 B overall grade. ONE! some C+ and most are C's. I have no idea how im going to tell my dad my thesis grade. since last couple of semesters my dad has already started to expect a B for me. only to find out today *later, that im a 'C' student. Im... AVERAGE. im an average student. It took me 12 years in SAS as the LOWEST academic achievers in the class. followed by 2 years of surprises in MD and 4 years of struggle in UBD to which I finally was confident enough to see myself as a student capable of B's. I finally see myself in UBD as a student who will no longer be in the bottom of the class list - grades wise.

as much as i have grown mentally and in terms of intelligence wise, i still cannot get pass the 'C'.

maybe i need to 'bersyukur'. Infact, that is exactly what i should feel. But its easier said than done. it will take a while for me to get this shocked right off my shoulders.



to all final year UBDians who will be graduating this sept/oct. CONGRATULATIONS class of 2010!!

my final results came out a couple of hours ago. i refreshed the UBD website more than 15 times and there was no change - infact, there is still no updates at the moment. so my aunt called me up and told me about the results and looked up mine for me since the web has not been updated yet. I was so shocked to hear my final project grade that all 3 other grades just seemed nothing to me. I saw my life flashing by me in that instant i heard the letter 'C'.


i worked the hardest i have ever worked in my life in that last year. I went places where id never thought i will ever go to. I talked to people I never thought of speaking to. I grew as a student and as a person. as important as these changes are to myself personally, its just not what i need to get the honor class that i NEED. the 'C' will not help me one bit. I know my effort deserves a 'B' but grades are not given to effort - its all about the end results. and my end results is unsatisfying.

for 8 semesters i have only managed to get 1 B overall grade. ONE! some C+ and most are C's. I have no idea how im going to tell my dad my thesis grade. since last couple of semesters my dad has already started to expect a B for me. only to find out today *later, that im a 'C' student. Im... AVERAGE. im an average student. It took me 12 years in SAS as the LOWEST academic achievers in the class. followed by 2 years of surprises in MD and 4 years of struggle in UBD to which I finally was confident enough to see myself as a student capable of B's. I finally see myself in UBD as a student who will no longer be in the bottom of the class list - grades wise.

as much as i have grown mentally and in terms of intelligence wise, i still cannot get pass the 'C'.

maybe i need to 'bersyukur'. Infact, that is exactly what i should feel. But its easier said than done. it will take a while for me to get this shocked right off my shoulders.



to all final year UBDians who will be graduating this sept/oct. CONGRATULATIONS class of 2010!!